This is so evocative. I love how disappointment and doubt are juxtaposed with such magic, mystery and beauty. Also powerful the way your cabin waits for your return, or not. What does it mean to inhabit a place without a sense of belonging?
I definitely had a sense of belonging during my time in Alaska, but it was a different sense of belonging. Until I came back to live in Colorado, I forgot how deep my sense of belonging is here. Is it partly generational? For three generations my family has inhabited this landscape and every bit of it feels elemental to me as a person. Like a coyote, I am most feral self here, if feral means freeing. The sage, the grass, the junipers, the mountain rivers, are in my bones and blood. It is a different level of belonging from Alaska. Alaska was like that lover that is always a little bit aloof, Colorado is indecipherable from me.
This is so evocative. I love how disappointment and doubt are juxtaposed with such magic, mystery and beauty. Also powerful the way your cabin waits for your return, or not. What does it mean to inhabit a place without a sense of belonging?
I definitely had a sense of belonging during my time in Alaska, but it was a different sense of belonging. Until I came back to live in Colorado, I forgot how deep my sense of belonging is here. Is it partly generational? For three generations my family has inhabited this landscape and every bit of it feels elemental to me as a person. Like a coyote, I am most feral self here, if feral means freeing. The sage, the grass, the junipers, the mountain rivers, are in my bones and blood. It is a different level of belonging from Alaska. Alaska was like that lover that is always a little bit aloof, Colorado is indecipherable from me.